My Health...

I've recently learned that my health is somewhat precarious.  The episodes which I thought were attributed to COPD, asthmatic episodes, have not all been asthma.  They are cardiac ischemic episodes.  They are getting more frequent, more intense.  

My mortality is becoming more real.  Time to get my affairs in order.  I am at peace.

I'm trying to take the meds prescribed recently as I have relented and began seeing a physician.  The meds make me too sick, so I stop, start them.  

The reason I don't like seeing a doctor is all they do is prescribe harmful drugs, which make me sick.  Is that what medicine has become?  Pill popping harmful drugs?  Do I have to feel like death not warmed over to allow the meds to take affect??? 

Leg and hand cramps, nausea, worse headaches than the ones I already live with, diarrhea, and a general feeling of feeling HORRIBLE?!  These are how I should feel taking meds to "protect my heart" and lower my BP, blood pressure??? 

I don't think I can hack it, honestly.  

Why can't they find ways to help me without killing me with medications???

The doctor chastised me, saying one of these nights 'you'll lie down and never wake up.'  

I responded, with all sincerity, 'From your mouth to G-d's ear.' 

Of course then he went into the govt authorized schpiel about worst case scenarios, 

living like a vegetable.  

I don't care about that.  

(With fibromyalgia, I am more concerned about living on bed sheets that burn my skin bc that's what happens if my skin comes into contact with certain fabrics and weaves.  THAT's what I care about!)

I've worked with some gems of people who lived with disabilities, and you never met people more in love with life, squeezing every drop out of every day they could!

While the "QUALITY OF LIFE POLICE" 

say we should sign medical directives TELLING "Health Care Providers" 

HOW MUCH care they should or should not provide us, 

in that worst case scenario that we end up like a disabled vegetable, 

I submit WHO MADE THEM god? 

I submit IDOLATRY has infiltrated medicine.  

Abortions, 

and now legal Euthanasia, 

where the patient TELLS the doctors to not give them the BEST care available.  

Hippocratic Oath be Damned!

People say how much the dying are suffering, and that it is only humane to expedite their death, to alleviate suffering.

I submit the side effects of the most popular painkiller administered,

MORPHINE, is the REAL PAIN.

Before I took my Mother into Vancouver, Washington Legacy Hospital at Salmon Creek, she did not have headache pain.  

One of the many physicians with whom I dealt with there admitted that SOME PEOPLE get seriously bad headaches from the morphine.

Further, in speaking to friends who have been under the influence of morphine for pain, I am told it does NOT ALLEVIATE YOUR PAIN, 

BUT it does NUMB YOUR BRAIN 

to where you're not in control of your mental faculties,

BUT YOU STILL FEEL PAIN!

So! NO MORPHINE for moi!

And NO INTUBATION either!

Intubation requires anethesia because it causes that much pain, 

so the patient is anesthetized to the point of BEING UNDER, out-like-a-light, AND...

not in control of their mental nor verbal capacities! 

How convenient, eh? Really?  THIS IS MEDICINE?

Surrendering your mental and verbal capacities to doctors and their drugs?

You know what this sounds like to me?

It sounds like the M.O., Method of Operating

that has been going on for decades where "Health Care Providers" 

(we no longer label them as 'doctors'--more about that another time)

have been medicating DISABLED CHILDREN to render them more MANAGEABLE for parents and public schools, with mind-altering drugs, aka psychotropics.  

It was so effective that they found they could do it to normal children, MOST ESPECIALLY LITTLE BOYS BEING LITTLE BOYS (oh! the horror, right? *rolling*my*eyes), but they had to come up with 'a means to this ends,' 

so they dreamed up, created disabilities 

like ADD, ADHD, dyslexia, etc.  

Mon Dieu, mon Dieu...

There are books written about these facts, so don't take my word for it.

Had I not started studying for a degree in pharmacology 

AND had this insatiable curiosity to LEARN, had a son on meds for his asthma, relatives on psychotropics, been on them myself (-the one good thing Larry Tavenner did for me--get me off those horrid meds which caused me paranoia, dependency, nightmares, hallucinations), and had access to a PDR and Facts and Comparisons (my bibles for meds), and then watched the ensuing medicating of disabled kids, disabled adults, the elderly, and subsequently watching the invention of so-called disabilities to be treated with these harmful drugs, I WOULD NEVER HAVE KNOWN, would never have CONNECTED THE DOTS, tying the medication of America to a RADICAL CHANGE IN MEDICINE.  

But I have watched, noted, over the years, dots that not only I can connect, but others can also.  Now that the average American, dumbed down in our public school systems, have been taught to UNLEARN, IOW, disqualify factual evidence if it comes from any source the establishment, that means the media, too, tells the public is a CONSERVATIVE, Christian, Republican, Tea Party type of source.  

UNLEARN.

I LIKE it!

It's accurate.

Any time a group of people is taught...brainwashed...to discount factual evidence because it comes from the hated RIGHT WING, conservatives, etc., that group of Americans has most effectively been taught to UNLEARN. 

Besides books in my personal library documenting 

THE ABUSE OF HARMFUL PHARMACEUTICALS by medical professionals,

I am waiting on this book from my public library:

Romancing opiates : pharmacological lies and the addiction bureaucracy /

      by Theodore Dalrymple. 

I'm seriously considering not using any more medications

and going, shall we say, ORGANIC, au natural.  

Hey, that's avant garde in some circles, n'est pas?

Seriously.

I would be happy to take all the drugs prescribed

IF I COULDN'T FEEL THEM EFFING with my body.

I'm very in tune with my body.  I put something into it, I monitor my body for differences, changes, in how it is feeling for up to 48 hours.  Seriously.  It's just habit with me now. 

Am I not the master of my body?

Am I not entitled to abort an unwanted child? It's MY BODY, right?

I love my children.

I love my grandchildren.

I pray for you daily.

But I'm not sure I can handle the outrageous side effects of prescribed drugs for my conditions.  

Years ago, in the 1980's, I threw out six Rx's from my internist, Dr. Ettlinger, for fibromyalgia, after they made me so sick, and manage the condition through diet.

Mid 1990's, when diagnosed with asthma--though I'd never had a symptom--I threw out six more Rx's from Dr. Andrade, after they made me too sick.

I now believe, I may actually have had UNDIAGNOSED early heart disease, which mimics asthma in that there is shortness of breath.  

Those were in the days when I had full, good medical coverage.  Now I am on Medicare, GOVT IN MY HEALTHCARE, and you can bet, if it's anything like what I've had, and anything like what our vets are experiencing at Veterans' Administration medical centers across this country, it ain't gonna be in my best health interests.  

So, my children, and my grandchildren, just pray for me.  I KNOW prayer, G-d, works in our lives, in our health, in our finances, in our relationships.  In the meantime, I will get busy getting physically active, strengthening my heart and other muscles, and I'll drop 25 pounds, somehow (I already eat well, just TOO well, LOL).  

I'll start going through pictures, posting them, commenting on them, and you get them posted onto your various photo-stashing websites, for posterity.  

I love you all, more than words can say.  And I miss you all, more than words can express.

Your Mama, Imah, Bubbe
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My Son and his sons

I love this picture of Giovanni and his second son, Alex Grimes!  

Alex, a couple years ago, and Giovanni- My boys, my nose, my ears, LOL! 

This is the only photo I have of Christopher Miller (Grimes).  He is now approximately 18.  MANY REGRETS, most of which were out of my control, but he is greatly missed, as are everyone of my estranged grandchildren,

who apparently care nothing for me. 

I am nothing to them. :*(

Yes, there is not a day that goes by that I do not cry, 

mourn the loss of my estranged grandchildren.  True.

Jayden & Giovanni on Jayden's 1st birthday. 

Looks like he's gonna have my big ears.  Got my baby blues, too, 

although Jayden's Mama says that is up to debate! 

She has baby blues, too ;D

Today, Father's Day, June 15th, 2014.

Words of a mother to her sons on this Father's Day 2014

Today is Father's Day in America.  (Links are in red font.)
I want to bless my sons, Farrell, Samuel, William III and his brother William, Jr., with the following Aaronic Blessing from these web pages: Aaronic Blessing 1 and Aaronic Blessing 2   
Learning is a biblical value.  It is as old as creation itself, long before secular man proclaimed it as the exclusive inheritance of elitists.  
I pray you love learning about G-d, His Teachings, His Creation, His Ways, His LOVE FOR YOU, and how to love Him through loving one another, with all diligence and passion.  
It is our legacy my sons.  Claim it!  

                                           Aaronic Blessing 

   By Rabbi Michael Short

Part One

William III turned me towards the biblical teacher, Pastor Arnold Murray, of blessed memory, whose teachings are readily available on tv on the SCN, Shepherds Chapel Network, and online at Shepherds Chapel Network where you can download his audio teachings onto your smartphones.  
There is so much false teaching going on today.  Pastor Murray is the closest to honest teaching I can find and I ask you to learn from Him.  
Thank you Giovanni for being open to G-d's guidance in allowing Him to guide you to this man of G-d, and for guiding me to Pastor Murray, a man whose learning surpasses mine, excepting his Hebrew pronunciation.  But he is very learned about the complexities, nuances, and Hebrew root words of the biblical language nonetheless.  
I love how he affirms that Jesus did not quote the so-called New Testament because it did not exist.  Jesus was indeed very learned, but in the TORAH.  The Torah had been replaced with the teachings of religious men, with what Pastor Murray calls "traditions of men," to put it nicely. Jesus pushed back on those false teachings, teaching directly from the Torah, and is the major reason he was so hated by the religious leaders of that day.  
His battles were not with the Romans who were "occupying" "HaEretz", "The Land", but with his own religious leaders who were perverting the word of HaShem.  
And he was one very angry man about it.  Today, the political left would call Jesus "an angry White man."  
Which brings me to another issue going on in America, the "War on Men (specifically White Men) and Boys."  I heard a female caller into Dennis Prager's radio program call in about something her husband said about a tv show they watched where the father was always the bumbler, the ineffectual one in the family and the mother could do no wrong.  This caller said her husband wanted their family to stop watching this tv show because of its negativity towards fathers, its undermining of fathers and men in general.  Dennis asked her was her husband correct.  She said once she viewed the show through her husband's eyes, he was absolutely right!  
My sons, the Torah stipulates that we become what we view, hear, and think.  Jesus said to GUARD our eyes, our ears, our thoughts.  
Download free, to your smartphone Dennis Prager Show . 
Listen to Dr. Laura.  Dr. Laura Schlessinger 
I personally attribute her with the saving of thousands of children by saving the marriages of their parents.  The harm done to our children by the public schools, by the government programs and interventions, interference into the home life, the family, the de-authorization of fathers and parents, is historic, and monumental.  
YOU CAN STOP THIS INJUSTICE on our parents and families, on our children, by so-called do-gooders!!
Had I known of Dr. Laura, had my mind filled with her biblical mindset, from a young age, I would most certainly have chosen proper and good mates to be my husband, and the father of my children.  
In my family, as well as Mormonism and certain sects of Judaism, (to quote Golda in Fiddler on The Roof) "a husband isn't to look at!  A husband is to get!" Well, that doesn't always work out well if your husband physically abuses you.  G-d does NOT expect us to stay in life threatening marriages, does he?
If you want to break the cycle we have been thrust into by a religion that upholds evil men, then it is imperative that you  listen to Dr. Laura, and have your children inundate their minds with the bible, Torah, as Jesus taught it, with people like Dennis Prager, and Dr. Laura.  and Pastor Murray. 
A father's love for his daughters is imperative.  We understand how important that love is to his sons, but, take my word for it, it is equally important to his daughters!!  Father's LOVE YOUR SONS AND YOUR DAUGHTERS.  Protect them from men with the wrong motives. Vet those men interested in your daughters.  Make a list of the requirements a prospective husband for your daughters must have before you will give your PERMISSION and bless their union.  Once that is accomplished, in a heart to heart with the prospect, let him know YOU WILL hold him accountable for her.  
Fathers, you must teach your daughters while they are yet young, how they should be treated by men, by how you treat their mother, with respect, and tenderness.  I think the two greatest attributes a man can give his children are showing their mother respect and sweet tenderness.   
"NOW, PLEASE, GO DO THE RIGHT THING!"

Bobby Goldsboro - Honey

This is for you Missy.  The song I wanted to name you after, but pressure from family kept me from giving you the name of a song I dearly loved.  



Since Farrell was a blonde, blue-eyed cutie, what was not to think you wouldn't be also, my honey-haired little baby girl?  And you were!  



This is a romantic song of true love, and Bobby Goldsboro sings it beautifully, poignantly. 



Juliet, You'll always be Imah's "Honey" #1!  Happy late birthday Honey! 

I love you!